what to do?

my baby's hurting and i don't know what to do.

i guess i kinda do know, generally, what to do. only thing is, it's the hardest thing (for me) i could possibly think of doing. yet it's probably what's best for her.

these next few months are going to be difficult. for both of us.

but i know the truth of it. in order for her to have the support she needs from me, the space she needs to get herself back, i need to put my desire for her and for a future with her completely aside. if i don't, the effect on her and her life will be terrible. if i don't, i won't have her anyway. if i do put my wants aside, give her support when she needs it, give her space and understanding (which means giving up even more of our already limited time), she'll have a better chance of finding herself, figuring out what she wants to do with her life, and getting back to being herself. and when that happens, there's a chance she'll include me in her life.

i'm scared that she'll see me as withdrawing from her, of caring less, wanting her less, loving her less. nothing could be further from the truth.