it seems...

she hasn't said, not in words. not sure she even knows yet, but it feels certain to me.

i wonder how this will go?

she'll let the pobox expire and not renew it. i won't figure it out until a piece of mail comes back.

she'll tell me that it's too risky to have the phone, that she can't risk him finding it, finding out that she's talking to me or anyone again. in other words, the risk outweighs the reward. the possibility of losing him isn't worth whatever she gets from having the phone.

and then? on time departures from the office every night? no lunch talks? shorter and shorter IM's?

i can't take it. i can't stand watching my love just slip away.

we would have been so good together....

so good.