if only

it's one of those stories...

like those stories of daring business men who risked it all on a gamble. they either win everything or wind up looking like fools.

and so it is.

had it worked out, we'd be looking back, telling the story to friends and family... "i just knew it, from the first time i talked to her, that i loved her. it was just a feeling, but it was so strong, i knew it was the right thing". and she'd add her part to the story.

but it didn't work out. i was wrong. so instead of winning her heart and her love and her hand and enjoying the rest of our lives together, i go off on a different future. alone. without her. and she has the love and the live and the lover that she's had all along. and her and him weave their future together.

i lost.

but she was worth the gamble. i'd do it again.