best laid plans

thought we'd have nearly an hour today before she left the office...

but, strangely enough, i'm okay. i feel "it" starting to build inside, but normally i'd be much more ?frenzied? by now. even though 3/4 of our time is gone, because i know she's busy and because i think i'm not pressuring her i believe she's under less stress.

and that's good. strange to say it because i think it means that with her less stressed, he'll be less stressed, they'll be less likely to fight, which means they'll have a better weekend together. the two of them. together. but as she's said many times "she's there. she's in [that] life". she should at least be enjoying it.

i really am okay with it.

mostly.

fuck. does this mean i'm maturing?