strictly personal reasons

why won't you trust me b?

the thing that's in motion now actually removes much of the ?threat? of anyone wondering who i am if i were to call - because they'd know me as a business contact.

so after removing the possibility of arousing any suspicions at work....

the reason(s) to stay hidden must be deeper, strictly personal.

i thought one of the reasons for not telling me your number was to prevent anyone from being ?suspicious? and maybe mentioning something to bf about another guy calling you... but all this would give me -complete- ?validity? for calling, at least for a while (longer, if the co. actually -used- my services, which i would bank all the money and use if for trips to see you...)... so the core reason(s) to stay hidden have to be much more personal... not wanting me to know you, being scared i'll screw up your life with bf, just scared of me personally, or all the above... no matter, ultimately, because i still want you in my life... it hurts, but on the other hand, it's okay too. i understand, and then again i don't. i NEED you to let me in, but i know that for as long as you don't i'll still be here.