all togethter now!

heard a great song i havent heard in a while tonight while riding -Designated drinker by allan jackson.

tonight, I'm the designated drinker
I just lost the one that wrapped me around her finger
I need to get to where I can't think of her
So tonight, I'm the designated drinker

and the last verse:
We need to get to where we can't think of her
So tonight we're the designated drinkers
(thank g-d for google)

worst part is she thinks she's just a friend to me, that all these aother sex parteners she thinks i have have pushed her out of top position. why doesnt she see that the only reason there even is any others is because she wont see me??? she has no idea what she really mean to me which really surprise's me cuz i thought id always made it plain and clear how importnat she is to me so why would she ever think that shes less important to me. idon't understand that at all. ive' always tried to make sure she knows how if felt. always. and if she saw me nowshed be disgusted that im drinking to try to ease my pain. shes so sttrong that way. but im not. i love her and i want her. it kills me that she dosnt want me the same why not?????where did i lose her where did she lose that interest in me that lust tht wanting that attraction that we've shared for so all these months?????? did i change into something/one she didnt want anymore or mabye she thought i didnt want her anymore (nOthing could be so farther from the truth) after all we;'ve shared and learned and discovered about each other how can she jsut go back to not wanting? whats changed why did she stop wanting me and decide to go back?.



but i beleive in my heart that this is true and real and meant to be its to strong to be just my imaignnation. if it is than im just the biggest fucking fool ever but if its not then why why why? how can she hold out and why whta does she gain by waiting? but for me even if not for her i know that thisis the one; no other has ever been like thisand never will be. so i wait.and wait. and wait until she eiter decides to see me or tells me to fuck off i love him and ill never ever leave him.

why cant she se e how much i love her????does it realy not matter to her atall? fuck i dont understand they always told us that true love always wins out but what???not in this case?? or is it only truelove for me?/

that would be the saddest thinga nd also make me out to be the biggest foool ever.

im not sure i could take learnign that.