a date

well, hopefully we'll have a date in a little while.

I asked her yesterday if she'd like a date today. it's something we say/do to kind of 'put aside' some time for us to really be together. sometimes we just talk. sometimes we have sex. sometimes we're just together.

we've been right on the verge of very sexual for over a week. yesterday i asked her to do some things as kind of a preparation for our date today... to wear a skirt, and to bring two things to the office that have some very sexual significance to us.

she did wear a skirt today. that pleased me a lot. she's had a hard time doing what i've asked before, but she did it. she also wore tights today. that excites me a lot - i like that look.. a lot. my thoughts yesterday were that i was going to have her take off her panties early in the day, to kind of build anticipation in her all day. i know it'd excite her to take them off and be in the office all day with no panties, knowing we were going to fuck later. and to feel her bare pussy on her skirt and her chair as she moved around. this morning, i was excited that i'd get her to take off her tights.

not today. something, probably in her relationship, soured her mood and appetite for sexuality today. i so much wanted to talk to her sexy.. to hear her, to have her. instead, i need to avoid all of that, because it'll really hit her the wrong way. instead, we'll spend the time talking and just being close, hopefully.

because another FUCKING weekend is here already. another two and a half days without her.

FUCK.

i hate weekends.

i hate leaving her on fridays. i want to hold on to her as long as possible.

before she goes home to him.

him.

i hate him.

fuck.