slapped

i've been slapped. and it hurt. a lot.

i made a mildly disparaging remark about bf and she slapped me. hard. hung up. bye. gone.

i guess i really touched a nerve.

i said i thought he'd done something (actually not done something) to make sure she had to leave the office right at 5. he'd done the same thing just a week earlier and she saw and admitted it. yet now, a week and a long weekend later, she's very defensive of him. it would seem she's become very vested in her life with him again. she's made clear, in no uncertain terms, where she stands.

i've been put in my place.

and the boundaries clearly drawn.

i didn't think it'd be so quick, that she'd so quickly reinsert herself in their life.

that she'd so quickly pull away from me. us. this.

i've lost. i've lost -her-. and it would appear that if i don't get that through my head i could lose her friendship too.