self service set up, #525

i don't know why i'm always taken aback, surprised...

and then i remember what's happened. and that she's married. and has a lover. and a life.

we end great (in my opinion, probably "fairly good" in an objective appraisal) on friday. i bemoaned her leaving early saying it was like a three day weekend and that made me :-( and she seemed to agree... (although i want to believe it was because it felt that way to her too, now that i think about it, she was probably saying she was sorry i would feel that way). she's with me in my thoughts all weekend; i wrote her a lot over the weekend.

woke up a little late coz i kept hitting the snooze and freaked because i thought i might have missed her signing in to chat.

um, no.

clearly she has more important things to do... whether take the day off, maybe spend it with her lover, maybe she's terribly busy at work... maybe she just has more important things to do, like counting paper clips... or maybe it's just a regular day for her and -i- just haven't occurred to her yet.

regardless, i've done it again.

and again. and again. and again.