what do i do/think now?

it's the time when she'd be leaving the office, -after- our talk time.

but she hasn't yet called since the short call after lunch. since the thing with bf.

i can imagine all kinds of scenarios.

the two most likely are that she either just really doesn't want to talk (and there's several things that could mean, none of them good) or he's come to her office to try to look for her phone or whatever he can find.

either way she's got to be having a terrible afternoon. and the evening will likely be just as bad.

and there's nothing i can do for her or to help her in any way. nothing.

i can't even call her to say "sorry".

it'll be a long, long night for both of us. hers full of accusations, insults, fighting, guilt. mine full of uncertainty, silent pain.

and hoping that she comes back tomorrow.