the earth spins again

she's back!

well, not -back-, coz i never had her, but you know what i mean. probably never will, either.

hearing her voice, so sweet, so soft... music to my ears.

the earth can spin again, my heart can beat again, the sun rises again.

i wonder what it'd be like if we were in the real world? not even as partners, but just having met?

actually, just like he did, i would have taken off work and gone with her too. although, come to think of it, she probably wouldn't have wanted that. she'd have wanted time away, some alone time. she'd have probably been insistent on me not going. yet she's fine with him going, even though he's not going to be with her but rather to keep her from "fucking around". if only he knew how loyal she really is to him. he thinks she has no loyalty and that she's fucking everybody. she won't even meet me because of her loyalty. he has everything and thinks he has nothing. i have nothing and think i have (almost) everything.

funny - i would've wanted to go with her, would've been disappointed to not go, but wouldn't have made a fuss. and while she was gone, i would never ever have worried about her fucking around.

whatever. he has her, she has him.

i have nothing. but i get to talk to her again. and that's something.

a very big something.