another weekend when she didn't have 2 minutes free to call. when we left on friday i had a strong feeling she -would- call. of course, two years ago i was sure we'd be seeing each other by now, too.
i really need to contain myself this week and help us have a good week together, because next week she's gone for four days. with him, of course. so what would have been a good opportunity for us to meet (had she been leaning toward that of which there's no indication whatsoever) is now a four day extension of no-talk-time. i shouldn't be jealous or upset that she's spending time with her partner, but i am.
been feeling so hopeless about ever seeing her. such a waste. two lives that (i believe) would be so enhanced with the presence of each other, held apart and unhappy on principle - because she and bf "have history".
William H. Macy in "The Cooler". Charles Shultze's Pig Pen. The comic strip "The Born Loser". and me.
and on mondays i've slipped further down the list of things to do.
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