saturdays.

we talked earlier today about talking on the weekends. she's constantly under surveillance and suspicion. to make him feel better she's overly solicitous of making sure that she never goes anywhere alone. she can't take her phone home over the weekend and even if she could, it feels too wrong to her to do that, to talk to me from their home.

she's said all that before.

but today it became clear to me: we'll never have saturdays or weekends again.

never.

in fact, ever speaking to her on the weekends again will be a rarity, only on the off chance that somehow she happens to be out and alone. and willing.