and then...

and then she's gone.

again.

it used to be that we had long, leisurely friday afternoons. when we hung up we knew it was just a few hours until we talked again, our long leisurely saturday mornings.

and then it was no weekends. and the weekends became a long countdown until we talked first thing monday morning.

and then friday afternoons got cut shorter and shorter.

and then it became no longer "first thing".

i want her more than anything, more than ever. i want her so much it hurts.

but i have less of her than ever. less time, less talk, less mindshare.

at some point, will i just cease to be?