Something to talk about... or not

Last week we decided to do something we'd talked about for a little while - read a book together. We figured out we'd do something like our own mini-book club; read something and then spend time talking about it. If it seems a little forced, it's not. She's such an interesting person and she's got such a range of interests and she loves to read (although like me has had little time to do so for quite a while). Not only that, but her tastes in books and movies is much broader than you might expect - certainly not your typical female interests. She almost hates romance stuff, doesn't like chick flick, but does love suspence, action, mystery, spy stuff, etc. Do I love this woman or what?

So anyway, we decided we'd read a book together and talk about it. Such a simple idea, yet so intriguing - I couldn't wait to get started. She picked the first book - a current action/suspense book by a popular author. We decided that instead of reading the whole thing and then discussing it, we'd do it more or less in lockstep, by reading a block of pages (the same block, obviously) and then discussing them.

It's been a week and we haven't yet found time to talk about the book. One of the ways things that tells me I'm less important to B is that she won't make time for us anymore. She used to. She used to call me whenever she had something she wanted to tell me. Or just to say hi. She used to take longer lunches so we could talk, spend some time together. Now she barely leaves the office and when she does, we can't talk because we don't have the phones anymore. But even before we lost the phones she's been less and less willing to spend time at lunch.

Could she have made time this week? I'd think so. Yesterday was a perfect opportunity (at least based on what I know of her schedule, etc). Everyone else cut out of her office yesterday by 5; she can easily stay till 6 without bf getting crazy. But she didn't, wouldn't. She said she had to run an errand. I'm sure she did. But I'm thinking if it was important to her to talk to me, to spend time with me, wouldn't she have set aside the time when it was at all possible for us to talk and run her errand another time, like at lunch?

Again today we could make time. Sometimes the office closes early on Fridays. So conceivably, she could tell bf that she's working late, till 5 or so, without really making him suspicious. Instead, she says that because she didn't get her errand run yesterday, and the place closes at 2:30, that she has to leave promptly at 2. Fuck me. Again, they're not open at lunch? Does she not see that those hours would be perfect for us to be able to spend time together? If she does, then why won't she, what's her reasoning? If she doesn't realize it, why not? She certainly would have before.

Am I left to conclude, being led to conclude, that this is not important to her anymore?