silly me

ya know how sometimes you do something with the best of intentions, and it turns out wrong? or you think there was something special about an event and you go to talk about it and it turns out you saw it differently than everyone else, and you were waaaay off base?

and so it is, again.

such nice, meaningful thoughts i had about our conversation yesterday afternoon. it was so good that i was able to look at how we'd been during that (i thought) rather personal conversation, see where i could have been better and more importantly, to look at my behavior in general and at how other conversations have gone -not- so well, and understand where i've been wrong and how i can be better in the future. better for her, better for us and just better in general.

time spent last night pondering these topics, good feelings from feeling that i'd understood something i hadn't understood before, something that's affected us many times. going to bed feeling like it'd been a good day overall - not only had we had a conversation about something very personal to her, but our interaction, the -tone- of our interaction, had been good. waking this morning and remembering it all. feeling good about her and us and waiting for her to get in so we could talk.

she didn't even remember the conversation.

then i asked her if she wanted to talk for a few minutes before we got started on our days. seh said she thought she'd just get right to work "cuz we already got all the basic questions out of the way".

ah. i see.