but of course

today took longer than 45 minutes, but i managed to piss her off pretty good.

we were talking on the phone and her cell rang; her car dealer service person. she said she had to take it and hung up. i im'd her a comment about being less important than her car dealer.

she chastised me in an abrupt voicemail then told me she was busy in IM, too busy to talk.

in a way i don't blame her. she is number one, top priority on the priority list of everyone in her life that she cares about. -Him-, her family and me. she has no idea what it's like to have to wait for an audience with someone. all her experience is that when she speaks, they listen. when she wants them, they're available.

it's something that i just need to accept. every single interruption -is- more important than me because all those interruptions are in her real, physical world. as far as i go, i'm ALWAYS here or reachable if she wants me. always. even when she was okay with calling me on the weekends, it was very seldom that she wasn't able to reach me. so every single thing in her real world, the fedex guy, the pizza guy, the guy selling cheap art door to door, the cleaning lady and of course -him- are all immediate and (more importantly) -real- things in her real world and really should be dealt with as they happen. me? i can be reached at any time.