bf wins again: more of her time, more of her mind

fuck. i can't do this.

her change of plans means so little to her, so much to me.

instead of spending a little time with her, in front of her, she's gone.

for her, a weekend of travel, companionship, fun, new stuff, then some work. i'm going away for the weekend too. but i'd hoped to spend some time with her, get a dose of her before going. instead, my little bit of her got ripped out and given to him. and he doesn't even know it.

and sometime tuesday morning something in her office will remind her and she'll call.

only 93 hours. 93 hours empty. waiting.

and the two short hours i might have had with her today now belong to him.

his life. his woman. his partner. his future.
her life. her man. her partner. her future.

he's already had her for eight years. he'll have her for 20 or 30 or 50 more. why can't i keep my little bit of time?

why does -he- get her, her love, her company, her time, her mind, her heart, her life?

because she's there, because -they- are the couple. because it's her choice.