i look at her, on line, and i'm dying to talk to her. but all i see is her with her arms crossed, head turned away. her words "i don't want to talk" echoing.
all the things that come to mind to say to her sit on the tip of my tongue, in my fingertips, wanting to be made into words/chat to send to her. and as i look at each and evaluate what her reaction would be, each is judged unworthy, of no value and discarded.
i have no words to break the silence. no thoughts worthy of her time. i can think of nothing worthwhile to offer her, only chit-chat. nothing i can say or do will take away yesterday, make her forget her disappointment. no appeal can justify her forgiving yesterday.
and every minute of silence pulls at me. she's already put me on notice that it's a busy morning. she brought lunch, so she'll not have to run out. and she has another event after work which will mean he will be picking her up and she'll be leaving at closing time today.
which takes us to tomorrow. friday, a short day always. busier than most anyway. almost never takes lunch on fridays anyway. an early departure.
and by monday, it'll be four days of little/no contact after that day (yesterday). five days for her to close off, pull away. lose interest.
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