Tuesday, February 05, 2008

and yet

this -will- kill me, i'm sure of it.

she can say things like "i miss u m. i miss who we were, who i was with you and what we could have been... i do believe we are soulmates... i wanted u m... i made arrangements to end my relationship...and start our life together... we are soulmates... "

you can guess how those things make me feel....

and then she can take a long lunch with her lover on the same day. and she'll see him tonight too and it's likely she saw him this morning.

you can guess how those things make me feel....

and still there's -some- hope, when, during conversation:

me: -that- path has changed... doesn't mean there's not another path to get to the same future [us together]
her: i know
me: that's the path i want us to find B. it's -there-. we just have to find it and want to find it
her: exactly. and sometimes too much has been done to someone for them to see that path worth the risk

you can guess how those things make me feel...

if she could (and would) -look- at me, look into my heart, she'd see...

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