and so it goes

over an hour ago, she said it'd be 20 mins. i know better, why do i get disappointed?

sigh. last night i heard a song i haven't heard in a long, long time. she said recently that she liked it when i'd once before recorded me singing a song to her. i was going to do that with this song (What Are You Doing With the Rest of Your Life). i thought the sultry, soft flow of the song would touch her. and yeah, that the words might evoke some emotion, stir her into action. dunno why, nothing else has ever budged her to do anything. certainly, the words mean a lot to me. but they talk about spending all your life with the singer, something she's not willing to even consider. after the latest "begging her to see me" fiasco today, i'm hesitant.

on the brighter side, i've got, roughly, 115 hours (or 6,900 minutes or 414,000 seconds) to think about what to do. coz it'll be that long until she's back in my world.

just over four and a half days. hopefully she'll rest, get caught up on sleep and shed some of the stress that's been hammering her. (well, in about 15 mins she'll shed the biggest part of it - me).

hopefully i'll get some rest too.

yeah.