why i can't chill

why i can't chill....

friday should've been our day. normally it would be our day, but after all the holidays and another short work week, last friday was supposed to be a good time for us to be "together". we should've had almost two-ish hours... except for those evil creatures called "Project Managers" and those frikkin' last minute meetings.. ON FRIDAY, no less. ain't NOTHING happening on that project that was more important than the hour B and i could've spent together.

and of course, the weekend. she either had no opportunity to get out and call or chose not to lest she "interrupt" my weekend. :-(

and now today, well over two hours past her normal arrival time at work, but nothing. no contact.

so what's this mean? did she oversleep? this could be good (coz she finally got enough sleep in one night?) or bad (coz they were out late partying & playing, or maybe just a -really- good night at home?).

did they fight and she left? she's said she'd call to let me know, if that happened. otoh, if it did happen, she'd no doubt have a very busy To Do list. and she might very well not tell me for sometime, so as to not have to deal with me pressuring her "now that she's single".

did they have a great weekend, talking and clearing up any unresolved issues, and now she's committed to bf and doesn't know how to break the news?

is she okay? what if she had an accident this weekend or on the way to work?? i might never know.

is work crazy this morning? maybe she got ambushed on walking through the door and hasn't had a moment to breathe since getting there.

guess i just gotta wait and see what happens.