I'm hopeless

What a nice day we had yesterday - I truly mean that. She thought I was disappointed because I couldn't get her into the mood for sex (I tried twice) but "disappointment" isn't really right. Yeah, I woulda liked it, as I'm sure she would have too, but "disappointed" is too strong. We still got to spend hours together - perhaps three or so over the day. By all accounts, a great day.

In other news, I'm so hopeless. We've been working on a technical issue over the phone. It's kinda hard to do over the phone, her being my eyes and hands and me trying to be the brains. She gets frustrated sometimes, although I'm not sure if it's because I don't fix it quick enough or just that it's taking her away from other things she wants/needs to be doing. So I got this idea in my head. Not a new idea, it's a ?bad? idea i've had many times before, just updated to be more current. I suggested to her that I could be there tomorrow to do the tech stuff myself, that we could have the day together, albeit in the office. Then, we might have a couple hours tomorrow night or, even though the office is closed friday if she could "go into the office" for a couple hours, we could spend more time together. Not necessarily fucking, but together, at the very least. I knew she wouldn't go for it. But I had to bring it up anyway. I knew the answer was going to be no, knew it, yet i'm still broken hearted. as if for some reason i thought this time she might say yes.

I hope someday she says yes.

I want her so much.