Monday, September 26, 2005

I hate weekends

i hate weekends. that sounds stupid, but it's true. i like having the time off and being able to sleep a little later and all that. but i hate them because it's 65+/- hours away from B. there's always a chance she'll call during the weekend, but that's infrequent.

over 2 & 1/2 days without talking to her. i hate it. she's out there, with her lover, living her life. i can't call her, can't im her, can't talk to her, can't email her.

what's she doing? what's she thinking? is life with him getting better? did they argue? did she have a great weekend with him? was there a lot of sex? no sex?

did she think of me? did she miss me?

g-d did i miss her.

why can't we be together? why can't we be lovers? why won't she even see me?

1 comment:

texsinger said...

i love your blog.. i can feel what you are going through.. i wish the best for you..