what will it be like?

lately i've been wondering what the reality of finally being with B will be like. what will going there to meet her for the first time, having her tell me she's left bf, holding her in my arms feel like?

what will our first fuck be like? what will it be like to take her out for dinner for the first time? how will it feel to watch her get undressed and get into bed with me? how will it feel to wrap myself around her and fall asleep? what will it feel like to wake up next to her? to have her wake me up with her mouth or pussy? to wake up, open my eyes and see her lying next to me?

how will it feel to sit and talk with her and figure out what the next few months of our life are going to be like? will we look for an apartment together? will she want one on her own for a while? will she come with me to whatever city i'm in at that time?

what will it feel like to not have to optimize our day to try to get the maximum amount of talk and/or chat time? how will it feel to know that we can talk anytime we want, day or night? how will it feel to actually be a part of her life? or to open my email and find pictures of her, unexpectedly?

how will the end of our first week together feel? the first month? our first (together) anniversary? how will it feel to have her, always? to have "the one" there that knows me so well (and still loves me)? what will it feel like to be walking from one room to another and find her there? to just stand there and look at her? or to walk up behind her, slip my arms around her waist, nuzzle my face in her neck and hair and whisper to her that i love her?

what will it be like the first time i watch another man fuck her? or watch her take on a roomful of guys for the first time (with me). how will it feel when she brings another woman over to me and tells me that she's coming home with us? how will it feel the first time she brings me my belt and says "Master, will you please beat your slut?"

how will it feel the first time i have to leave her at an airport to go back to where i'm working? or to pick her up at the airport the first time she comes to visit me?

how will it feel to finally stand with her in the place we've talked about so often and pledge our lives to each other? how will it feel when she looks me in the eye and says "yes"?