:-D it's saturday and my baby called me! :-D

i don't think it gets much better than this... my baby called this morning about 8am... we got to talk, skype, no less, for almost two hours...

two hours...

:-) g-d....

i know for all you people (fuckers) who have real world, in person relationships, talking for two hours on a saturday morning might not seem like a big deal to you... well, that's because you don't appreciate just how much you really have... these two hours were like an additional, i dunno, 20% of -extra- time that we got to talk this week... imagine being with your lover and being granted an extra day and a half for the weekend, to spend together... then maybe you'll have some small notion of what getting two extra hours to talk is like for me.

and fuck you for being so superior. this is the relationship i have with -my- love. fine, i get that you actually get to hold, kiss and sleep with your love. you get to call her anytime you want, talk, anytime you want... do things -together-.

fuck you.

this is my life, my love and my relationship. i'd rather have this with her than anything else.

well, except for actually having her in my life, physically, every day. that i would prefer. but it's not what i have and may never have.

but i have her.