five days a week i end my day with my love holding a dead phone, thinking about her, over a thousand miles away, saying "i gotta go", then click, silence and the sound of a call disconnecting. two days a week i don't even get to talk to her - because she left on friday to go home to her life.
what is it that she has there that makes it so worthwhile staying for, what makes it so impossible for her to leave? is it money? security? love? familiarity?
maybe i'm looking at the problem the wrong way. i always consider it from the point of view that i assume she wants to be here instead of there but that something holds her too strongly. what if that's not the case at all? what if it's not that her life is keeping her from coming here? what if the real problem is that she doesn't see enough here to even consider leaving? i've sort of assumed that she's dying to get over here but just having a hard time letting go of bf. what if it's not a case of having a hard time letting go, but rather a case of nothing worth letting go for?
what if all the time i've been wondering "why won't she let go?" she's been thinking "why should i let go?".
as jeff goldblum said in "The Big Chill" - "rationalization is a wonderful thing.. try getting through a day without one or two juicy rationalizations"... (ok, not a quote, but close enough).
opinions are what we believe, facts are what we know. facts can be very disturbing when they contradict opinions.
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yes its is but when you believe in an opinion so much its became a fact to you and will be so hard for you to tell the difference !! and some times we don't see our own flaws and we assume its on others .
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