limitations

ultimately it's up to me. she's told me time and again and i suppose i've known it all along.

how the rest of my life goes is up to me. i guess everyone's life is that way. the biggest difference is being that most people are free to make their life be exactly what they want it to be, to pursue the life they want the most.

that option's not open to me. like everyone else, i'm free to set and control of much of my life as i choose. except that i'm limited - the best possible future for me is not allowed.

so if i extend every effort, live life to the fullest, take every opportunity to enjoy life - the best i can get is the silver. i didn't make the cut for the gold competition.

period.

yet, even though i have to acknowledge the limits, she's right.

live well, just live or die. my choice. winning isn't an option, only runner up, honorable mention or disqualified.

lemme think about it.