Wednesday, February 04, 2009

it's gotta just be me

i know i may be being hypersensitive about things in general and her & sex in particular, but still....

in one of the things about which we'll never agree as to it's impact... we had this conversation snippet recently...

me: six guys before we met. a hundred or more since we met. just not me

her: why not you? cuz when i get close to trusting you, you decide you'd rather have someone else

me: did you have to trust the other 100+ before fucking them?

her: no. but they also didn't tell me lies, about how they wanted me, and when i came to them, say "nevermind, turns out i don't want you afterall"

me: most of them didn't even know you long enough before fucking you to learn your name

her: you're right. they dind't. but they also didn't make me think i could trust them and then rip my heart out several times over
i know i did to her everything she says i did.

but am i really so wrong for feeling that it's just -me- she won't fuck? she'll fuck -anyone- else that bf or -him- tells her to fuck.

it's gotta be just me, doesn't it?

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