tick

now this is hard... knowing that she's probably on her way to the office, or maybe even already there. i can picture her driving, radio blaring. she'll get a call from him. she's probably running through the things she wants to get done today.

is she relaxed, refreshed after her days off? is she thinking about me, about calling me? has she missed me? g-d knows i've missed her.

tick. tick. tick. the minutes d-r-a-g by. each seems longer than the last. and when the :30 mark comes - that's the worst because it's when she starts her work day, and when she's officially in the office, and when she's "there" to me.... but i know she can't and won't call right then, so then i start to feel like i'm in overtime. and each minute gets even longer.

sigh.

tick. another minute.

i can see her, in my minds eye, driving. sunglasses on, radio on, probably singing along. hopefully with a smile on her face. i wish i could see her.

tick.