i just found out i'm diabetic. way diabetic.
i guess congratulations are in order - for me. i've worked hard over the last 6 years to abuse myself as much as possible. bad food, fast food, rich food. alcohol. tons and tons of alcohol. for the last 2 years i've drank about 3-4L of vodka per week. for a couple years before that it was 1-2L per week.
looks like i've succeeded.
i wonder if i was subconsciously trying to prove something to myself. we've just determined that there are no health issues, no social issues, no life issues that are severe enough, that no threat to my life or mental health are enough to get her to overcome her fears and come to me. nothing that can happen to me is enough for her to give up those fears and start our life together. which is the one thing i need.
and now i've proved it.
knowing isn't always better...
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Your profile says you're a technical person. That can be very helpful for a diabetic. A technical, analytical attitude can be a big deal as you monitor your blood glucose and learn which foods are safe and which ones aren't. It can actually be a fascinating mental challenge, and it's one that I enjoy just as much as working a tough New York Times Sunday crossword puzzle -- and the stakes are higher. Best wishes to you.
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